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sirenspull_ooc2012-11-27 07:22 pm
hostage) wrote in sirenspull_ooc2012-11-27 07:22 pm
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TL;DR Character Relationship Meme
(A Cheat Sheet for CR Charts)
♥ Step one: post with your characters.
♠ Step two: respond to other people's characters with your characters.
♦ Step three: they tell you in detail what their character thinks of your character. TL;DR is encouraged; that's how this works.
♣ Optional step four: discuss it with them if you want! Make a big chain of tl;dr if you're up to it.
♥ Step five: other people do the same thing to you! Maybe you even harvest your tl;dr to use in a CR chart later.
♠ Step six: keep checking back in so that no one is ever late!
(Stolen from C&C and Exsilium and Ataraxion and everywhere else.)
Nill | DOGS: Bullets & Carnage
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Mind you, Nill feels awful about this. She feels awful about a lot of things these days. But the way she figures, she'll stop caring about it at some point, and if she doesn't Jesse will probably disappear or die and it won't matter after that anyway.
That said though, Nill does like Jesse a lot. She's just not letting herself care about him to any great extent because if she starts caring about him too much, she won't be able to use him. Mind you... it's hard not to care about people whose heads she's been in for any extended period of time, and she's around Jesse and therefore in his head a lot. One of two things happens when Nill is around people too often; she either ends up loving them, or hating them, and Nill doesn't really dislike Jesse at all. It's going to be interesting as they hang out more.
Re: Nill | DOGS: Bullets & Carnage
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No but seriously.
Nill loves Yosuke. There are days she seriously hates him - like when he's an offensive fuck and a jackass to her friends - but even when she seriously can't stand him, she loves him. She never wants him to change, because he's nice and a decent human being most of the time, but she wants to punch him for being an asshole. Even when she wants to punch him though she kind of feels bad about it, but he fucking deserves it anyway. >| SO MANY MIXED FEELINGS.
Seriously though, Yosuke was one of the only good things in Nill's life for a damn long time. He literally kept her from doing a lot of harmful things last year, and if he hadn't been around when Shika got himself killed and didn't come back she probably wouldn't be here either. Nill is basically doing a lot of stupid and slightly suicidal things now that he's gone, because even though he promised she's completely sure it's a lie and that he's never coming back, because people just don't come back. Except Dave, but he was gone for like a day, and that's not enough to make her believe people come back, even though she wants him to come back more than anything.
God you have no idea how happy she's going to be when she sees him again and he remembers her.
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And yes, it'll be a big dramatic movie scene reunion.
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Same goes for Ino, kind of. Nill wasn't actually as close with Ino as she would have liked to be, but she spent more than a good three years around someone who loved Ino like family. And, being a telepath and an empath, Nill loved Ino like family too.
So, Sasuke saying that Itachi didn't care? Or saying that she has no right to talk about someone that she spent a few years with? Or threatening someone that Nill loved like she loved her actual pseudo family? Sasuke can go to hell for all she cares. There is literally nothing Sasuke can say or do or think that would make Nill believe that Itachi didn't care about her, because she knows he did, and nothing that will make her believe that the way he treated Ino was even remotely acceptable, no matter what Sasuke has been through. Sasuke literally means nothing to Nill. She wouldn't care if he was alive or dead, because he's just one of the most venomous, hateful people she's ever known (in both instances of knowing him), and she doesn't want to be anywhere near him. Now that Ino is gone, she doesn't feel like she needs to keep tabs on him either, so she's not going to. All Sasuke does is make her angry, and why would she want to waste her energy on that?
tl;dr, what she said in their last conversation, he can fuck off.
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EXCEPT. Nill also wants to keep Lisbeth at a distance, primarily because Nill is seriously using one of her loved ones, and has no intention of stopping for Lisbeth's sake (or Jesse's). That death wish is pretty ingrained in her by now, and she's not going to put it on hold for Lisbeth, even if Lisbeth is kind of the only person that can see it coming at this point. Mind you, Nill is shit at keeping people at a distance, but it never stops her from trying. But like Jesse, Nill also figures Lisbeth will disappear or die at some point too, and then it won't make a difference.
She really missed the kind of things she does with Lisbeth, though. She loves talkative people, but she also adores people that she can just sit with and kind of do nothing, even if it sometimes involves beer when Lisbeth is involved. So she seriously adores Lisbeth.
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At the same time, shit has been going on in his life for a few years now, and he's probably seen more shit than a lot of other people she knows have. Not only that, but he's capable, and she and her friends were dealing with some heavy shit when they were his age. She wants to treat him like a kid and just try to make sure he has a good, semi-normal life, but he isn't really a kid, and having that is kind of impossible no matter where you go or what you do. She knows. She tried to make sure Yosuke had that and kind of broke down when she realized he couldn't.
And then, you know, there's the matter of him saving her fucking life. Nill has very mixed feelings about it, because she's kind of had something of a death wish for awhile now, but it's not something she could act on. She feels like she especially can't consider acting on it now to some extent (despite her self destructive actions as of late) because if she gets hurt, it isn't really her blood that's going to be on the ground - It's Dave's. It isn't a problem she's ever had to think about before, and she doesn't really know what to do about it. But she remembers waking up in that hospital room, drugged and warm and with Dave sitting there, and she remembers that a lot these days. It was such a nice feeling, because the last time she was in the hospital she was more or less alone. Shika probably visited her once. Not only that, but Dave got it when she told him to get the pictures on the network. He understood that it was more important, even if he didn't like it, and Nill has spent so much time worry about her and hers that she kind of forgot people still worried about others.
Then Dave disappeared just after Yosuke did, and Nill kind of flipped shit (though not necessarily because Dave disappeared). She used the opportunity with him not in the port to kill someone and start this streak of self destructing, and no one has been any the wiser about it except Lisbeth.
But then, pretty much the unthinkable happened, and Dave came back. And just... holy shit, he came back. And he's still around. That wedding invite? That was not so much a wedding invite as it was Nill making sure that he hasn't disappeared again. When Naruto came back he was only around for about a month before he disappeared again, and Nill is pretty sure he's dead now. She's kind of afraid Dave won't be around much longer, and she knows there's nothing she can do about that, because she was literally holding on to Yosuke and he disappeared anyway. The core is a bitch. >|
WOW I'M NOT SURE WHAT I'M RAMBLING ABOUT ANYMORE. Uh. Let's see.
OH THERE'S also the matter of Dave and Davesprite, and Nill kind of feels like she's betraying Davesprite a little by liking Dave as much as she does. She had the same problem with Yosuke and her Senpai and generally has this problem with all "doubles", but it's especially bad with Dave because for all Nill knew about Davesprite, Davesprite knew jack shit about Nill, and she kept it that way on purpose. Now she's going to Dave when she has issues, because who the fuck else is there even to go to anymore, and she's incredibly torn about it. At the same time, she wants to keep Dave safe, because Davesprite basically dedicated his life to trying to make sure Dave's timeline came out better than his, and Nill wants it to be okay too. She's pretty sure she's part of some beta timeline and she's one of the last little flickers before it goes out, but she wants Dave to be in an alpha timeline. She wants him and Rose and John and green (herpderp she doesn't know Jade) to be okay.
OKAY I think that covered all the bases. If I missed anything that I've mentioned in the past that you think needs elaborating on, let me know and I will ramble at you some more.
WAIT WAIT I FORGOT SOMETHING.
Okay the other thing to keep in mind is that Nill literally has two sets of memories in her head. Her grasp on "reality" is a little more strained than most, because these memories of hers overlap, and they tell her that she's had two different lives. They also tell her that she only got to about 15 in one of them, and she got to 17ish in the other - but she can't remember most of the people in that longer life. So when someone asks her where she's from, or what her world was like, she never really knows how to respond. She knows which set is meant to be "real", but it doesn't feel any more or less real than the other. Sometimes she can't tell what happened in which "life", either. So occasionally she questions what is or isn't real a lot, and she's usually pretty damn good at not letting on, but then she gets freaked out and she needs someone to confirm things for her, and she used to go to Shika. Then Shika disappeared and Nill sent him messages whenever she had trouble, but they always bounced back, because Shika is dead. So this last time, when it was particularly bad and she wasn't sure if the world was playing tricks on her, she went to Dave, because even if he didn't understand she thought he'd get it more than other people, and she's very sorry for freaking him out about that. It was not a wise move on her part, and she suspects she'll need to explain it to him at some point.
Alright, now I'm done for real.